Un-honest Love

I can’t seem to find you in my heart. 

You're just not there, 

I can’t sit here and be unpleased 

Thinking about why I have you here. 

You say you love me, 

But my heart pushes you away 

I think I love you, but it's not the truth 

Everyday in my heart you seem to fade. 

I’m trying to stay true to myself 

I hope you can see 

I can’t always listen to your emotions 

And be as you want me to be. 

I can’t help it but to love you 

Love you Un-honest 

Love that isn’t honest 

Can’t flow through my heart constantly 

You’re not my first, 

First boy who trapped me in their spell 

To the point where I cry at night 

That I have my own little shell. 

Boy I can say I love you 

But I lie to your face with a pound of shame 

Our relationship 

Was all a big game? 

Don’t get me wrong 

I feel real bad 

But I warned your heart before 

to save it from being sad.